Beliefs about my life !!!!!!!!!!

Well, I missed sharing my experiences,,, my thoughts and inspirations with others. But what I have missed the most is reading the experiences, the thoughts and inspirations of others... I have missed connecting to like-minded people,,, thousands of kilometers away from me, and knowing that others share my beliefs about life.

I have missed  blogging community in which so many people share their passions, fears and hopes with honesty and courage.... I have missed expressing and experimenting.
So now I’m back.

I will no doubt need some time to readjust, to get used to blogging and creating once again.
But it seems like I’m off to a good start..... in my dressing gown, with a sweet cup of coffee in a quiet morning house, just like old times.

In addition, during the day, I do not worry about setting aside a time for writing or about having enough time to write in the evening. ...This gives me a peace of mind and allows me to dedicate my evenings to other, usually home and family, activities........

Journey------for a life time !!!!

Life stuck reaches us every bit about death and a few about own journey near to death ...near to death journey was so furious .. we need to strong enough to fight the rhythm of the death .. it is really fearful , but the soul treated as the lightest  thing in the world, i ever seen !!!!! life touched every blow... inside dying is the most cruel thing , that burn inside ......

 
Sometimes I think of death. I feel afraid. I know cowards die thousands of times before their time comes, I might be a coward. 
what happens after death ?


 One day, we are all going to close our eyes and are never going to open them. I fear death. Death is like a shadow; it follows us throughout our life till it gets a chance to get inside us and take our souls away and leave behind a lifeless body, a body without its achievements, its history, its future. Just a few of  bones and muscles. 

 
Death can be painful. It is painful. The person dying might undergo a lot of trauma, but the people surrounding him/her are just waiting for their end to spat on !! t. Because that’s what life teaches us: to accept and move on.

October.....passing thoughts !!!!!

At the start of the year, I wanted peace and calm; I wanted to clear my energy of any surrounding people; I wanted to discover my new life abroad from my own perspective, without the influence of others. I needed a break; I needed to be alone.

 

For months, I was extremely happy being in just my own and my partner’s company. I didn’t try to get out and meet people, and no-one came into my life ‘by chance’. I cooked, I cycled, I went for walks, I took photos, I read, I made collages. I kept myself to myself and didn’t wish for anything else.

Since the beginning of September, however, my weeks have been filled with accidental meetings, new friends, old friends, unexpected invitations and spontaneous outings. At first, I couldn’t understand why, suddenly, after all this time, so many people were coming into my life. But then I realised – it is what I wanted. I reconnected with myself and found my own grounding. Now it was time to share all of this with others. I had sent out a genuine wish into the universe and got an answer.

 

When our wishes are just passing thoughts, the universe hears them as a whisper. When our whole being – mind, body and soul – truly believes in and is wishing for something, the universe hears loud and clear and materializes our thoughts. Sometimes its replies reach us fairly quickly, at other times, they can take months or years to get to us. But if we want to see it, we firstly have to believe it, no matter how long it may take........passing thoughts !!!

Womb - The Interior of anything

We all want some sort of memory of our past. It is nice to look back at photos and remember the events in our lives, but it’s even nicer reading about our impressions of that event.
Whenever I come across my old notes or letters or diaries, I am overcome with all sorts of emotions:



 

surprise, joy, nostalgia, sadness. I am grateful to my past self for having  fleeting moments.

However, although it’s great to keep a diary for the pleasure of our future selves, our busy lifestyle does not necessarily give us the time to write in detail about our day. And anyway, will we even want to read all the details of our days in 20, 30 or 40 years time? Probably not. All we will want to do is to remember the most important feelings, thoughts and impressions that we had during certain periods of our lives.

So far, 2017 for me has been defined by changes, surprises and discoveries. And most of these have been emotional and psychological. Changing my priorities or wishes; being surprised by my new perspectives on events or people; discovering new ways of thinking and living.

How to describe my life to you right now? How to sum up the events and feelings? I’m not sure I can, but I will try…womb --the interior of anything....means everything !!!!

straightening Session

 

It had accepted a long journey from being shoved off in a Boys Barber Shop to being treated with overpriced spas in Lakme…From being bent, rolled, curled with Hair stylers to never being combed for days together… From Hair grown, Hair fall, Hair loss…and now to Hair Gone!!! A long journey indeed.....

 

At three, I could hardly wash my hands clean…But I knew too well to roll the drier like a beauty queen.

 

 

After so much of struggle in becoming a self-taught hair stylist… when My cruel Granny and My Brutal Daddy would drag me by my arms to a barber’s shop and chop …Sorry.. I mean My Hair…But they are equivalent though :).. .. and that was when My Mummy had gone away to do her Masters…

School passed away…studies took over style and physics over fashion…

College started. College finished . I went unnoticed. The waves had given way to noodles then and four years slipped away intertwined in them.

shampoo would seem utterly expensive after all the Cost Benefit Analysis…!!

One Day The Bird woke. The Nest Broke.

I guess the best part of my life had started. I enjoyed being a Student..not just with wisdom but with wits as well.

I realized why so many people in India beg—Salary flows but Charity Overflows!! Gosh!!!

And they did!! The discount tempted me to ultimately do it….I Straightened my hair!!

For the first time what was on my head exponentially enhanced what was in it as well. Confidence,Cognizance and Compliments!!!

Aaahh Life was a bliss!

Months passed.

Split ends cried for a long waited hair cut…

my head covered in my jackets hood.

Nurtured within me !!!!!

The day that I wished to live…would be the day… when I would pull down the window glass of my car to take a look at the country crowd… happiness and welfare….

and the day that is to get me this day, is the day I’m squatting on the footpath staring into this SUV…trying hard to see through the dark glass…thinking…”will that girl in there be able to make it to glory….will she see be able to see the burning problems of the people…never having tanned herself in the sun…”

Such a peculiar dream it was…… and there’s only this one way…I’m not allowed any slippers ..nor do I have any iron feet…
Now its time for me to choose…

But I want to go in…go in there desperately…so distant, as painful when wide awake …as blissful when in slumber….

I will have to go…
But so tough it is…
And so I tread on…on shards of glass tearing my feet apart…but there’s immense pleasure…