Textbook -- iphone Story

well, am writing this blog from my iPhone today for the first time, so please pardon any of my typos.very day, it’s one thing after another. Life just keeping hammering me down harder and harder, and then making me enough to fight and make the life so softer, that i cannot believe !!! I really don’t know how much more I can take. and then the sun kissing me like the saliva he giving me is just the vital vitamins to fight again with all such efforts !!!!

I love coming home to my neat, quiet house..... I love not having to wipe someone or clean up .. I love my time, and I do not want to compromise how I fill that time for anyone......; some say this is selfish......... I love being able 

 to plan a cruise for vacation and not wonder if i can afford it.... I love being able to save money for my future....... I love being able to do things on a whim............. I love being able to watch things without wondering ....... I love my career and working i am ......But I cannot take it anymore...  I cannot spend another day giving all of myself and getting so very little in return...... It is not about money for me......... I recognize exactly how cherry my schedule is, and I know how lucky I am to have a job where my summer somewhat balances out all of the work I do for free in the evenings and on the weekends..........

It leaves me feeling exhausted even after a solid night’s sleep...... It makes me irritable during the day because there just is not enough time in the world for everything I need to do.???....... and I do not like leaving things unfinished........ I cannot make the world change to a 36 hour day, and even if I could...

for all my thoughts around the world,,, where the chapters are very small lesson,  the bit by bit answer for all my  queries striking in mind !!!!!                                                                                                
is there any text book for  my life  i want  to live through !!!!!! 
PS- i have to write my own text book ... just a thought !!
#love # cherish !!!!!!!!   
## a person who love his / her own shadow !

Summer, you were fling !!!!!!

Long forgotten memories, hidden somewhere in my subconscious, flashed before my eyes when I saw it over here. I couldn’t remember when, or where, or why; all I could remember was the feeling of absolute joy and bliss I felt as a child at being in possession of a toy . I remember smiling, holding the toy  tightly in my hands, and spending hours observing with fascination the rainbow of alternating colours, spinning with the wind.

It was the most beautiful and elegant thing I had ever seen in those first years of life. And, to be honest, I think I love it just as much today.

We all know what it means to not be ourselves, or in other words, to pretend to be someone else.  We usually discover this in school, when, in an attempt to make friends or to become popular, we pretend to like certain bands, or we start dressing in a certain way, or we voice ideas that we know will get us kudos points.

My laptop needs space to save new files, to perform new functions..... My old documents, photos and music are blocking it up from being able to serve the purposes for which I need ...... It is asking for my help to clear it of the unnecessary junk that I’ve been storing all these years...........

Our past fears, grudges and negative emotions do not serve us today..... They are in the mind; they exist only as thoughts and memories.... Today’s reality is different to yesterday’s..... In order to live fully today, our mind and body must be in the present.....

Today, I will free my laptop of old and unnecessary junk. Today, I will connect to myself and recognize the thoughts, beliefs and emotions from the past that hold me back from living fully today.

It’s been quite a few months that on almost every journey, capturing in image what I cannot seize in words. 

all about my hobby revitalized !!!!