strenuous effort

I am a lady, future wife , who loves to talk, read and write. Writing has always been my way to break away from the mundane and enter the world of my imagination. My writing is personal, emotional and organic to my own journey. Lady with a huge effort for shifting gears. 

the journey of my own solitude taken me to a position, where am not satisfied what i loosen, am not crying anymore what i can't hold anymore or my effort for holding my own happiness is not enough!!! 

i have a life where,  after a lot of struggle  i have managed to live a life with full of passion.

again god , anxiety still remain in heart ❤️!! eagerness still in mind .', few things beating 💗 inside me , i don't know 🤷🏻‍♀️ how to describe what really is the feeling for !!! 

well , all i can say :: am good !! i am chill :: really really happy for you :: and proud for you :: and again am sorry for everything extreme because of me !! 

the feeling for looking at you is something all that my world 🌎 starts with and ends just into you . and i don't have so much guts to stop myself to look myself rather then you , again m asking something that same you feeling for me ??we really  made for love ❤️ ❤️?? i don't know what love is ? is this called so ? is this love at first sight?? all i am waiting for the day, when surely rain will sail everything that keeping inside me so heavily. what hurting for !! someone told am 😍 in love ❤️!!! owwo ,, may be :💋💋 

The fact that it is taking me the longest time to write the first sentence , provides proof of the kind of impact has  on my life. There are so many stories that it’s hard to find the right beginning. Then again, one can begin so many things with a new person! – even begin to be a better man. Is this boring  ??  … God!No!   I am certain of one thing, that love, especially always gets the better of you.

year - 2017

silence was the answer !!

It was a rainy evening, when the air smelt of fresh grass and jasmine flowers. my sister  and me were sitting in the verandah. “Nanu , my semester exams are waiting for me and all practical papers , what i must to do  , asked by my sister
 . Should I appear  for it? . (Year 2013) 

why it is called appear not apply or not practice for the paper ??   - is dat any means  - and yes just beacause she had some chronic. 


after a hue and cry we two decided to practice and appear the paper at its best - you might want  to know the result???  it was awesome,  with the chemotherapy in between the papers, it was 84% , some thing which beyond our efforts we put together. we two daughters!! 

another day when we sit together another question she asked "nanu" am waiting for the day when i will pass from our university  --- ?? because another semester she had not appeared, two more years of engineering still there to complete .......  i was silent , a numb was there , my beats were like plumbing,, i was trembling, because i had nothing to answer .... ourv eyes were talking , she held my hands so tightly and a tight hug was the another semester result , means that's  our result we made it together 

all i put it in words a few unsatisfied, a few still unfilled, a few remain untold as always ..... ❤️ love you always ... you are Champ always .... for Nanu you are everything what she made within you ,, my girl.. i need no semester result !!! i have seen what courage you had within !!! ummmha for you and only you 

i love you ❤️ and kissy to you .... 😘😍💋

year - 2014