what i love ! # 1

we all have  favorite lines, phrases, situations . But today i am going to  share what i really love !  of life . may be you are a word-lover, you are going to fall in love with books, the lines, phrases and situation .. and i am only the ex-presser ..may be i am not so good observer ..still i gonna be share what i really love ,...and  about what you really love to do ?

 

the corner of the room cheerfully reminds me ofoo i am still too childy,not-so-long-ago childhood

 

the other side in my home my room . i hug him, take a nap on him, snuggle happily. But after that little love affair  !

 

i have a strong attraction to the corner do not know  why, still in love with him a long ago ! and i  know i will never be too old to stop loving ever 

 

and, when grown ups do not remove my  childhood from life ! when talks are not always about latest phones, technology, peer pressure, weight loss, marriage, coach bags but about plush toys, pencils, new style sharpener, multi-colored backpacks, wallets ...few things as always 

 

someone asked me why i love him  so much. i had to smile  – “Why should children have all the fun?!” then why not me ?

from the beginning, the 20 days after my birth, as my mom told i always LOVE  to take shower ! the corner of our home ! all i love our bath place a more and more .i love the tab ..the shower .. the way water pours on my face .. the way do not want to get wet more but then my journey with him starts so lovingly !! it is really craziest moment of my life everyday ! 

 

may be i too have a lot of hobbies but this one i enjoy most , i love the sound dropping down water from the tab ..and  truth, and like i have mentioned,i  have mountains of thoughts  for anyone who struggles with body image, addiction or any comparing oneself to another issue,but its the place where you look so wonderful each day ...

 

between rinsing off the soap and deciding if i should use the smelling shower gel or shampoo or soap  , these comparing my thoughts are  making me feel a little anxious a little more beautiful each day,  so i  do  what these kind of thoughts make me do and jumped right into the obvious female issue ,,how donot  i love my body ,how donot i like myself a little more , love for me a little more when i am down and really down ! and then he finally complements me .

 

jyoti you are wonderful ! 

 

be as you are ! as it is ! 

 

i know the soul crushing pain of feeling less  and i would not wish that suffocating space ,,but its the place where everyone as i know get relax...this is the place where i need not to wipe my tears ..this is the place where the chance of my wobbly sound never be come outside !  the soothing relief .all i want to catch my breath once more ,but how can i ? he gives me back and it is true 

 

and this is where i think all that comparing stuff fits right back , and if i sit back long enough, let the warm water calm me,let the cold water hug me tight .love to play with the gel , soap ,the drops of water on my face .i actually see it is not me, and really how self-centered to ever think it was? i do not know if it is even them. i think it is the biology, and the control that biology has over with the soul.

 

 

few days back this song got released ...here the song i enjoy @@ shower and.....  

maybe that is it ,the crazy part about that all the consuming body image issue, and the issues  (like competitions, excessive righteousness, being number one), is its power.   

 

all i want to stand in the shower all the time ..the peace ..the words he says everyday ...the  touch he gives me every second  i enjoy and i do love ..ummha !

 

and then mom sounds so angrily jyoti just come out now ! you will finish all the tank or what ? Lolz 

 

and what more i love ,i will share too shortly my friends .... ,i will be back with

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